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你可能喜欢As I write this, it is 1:17 am on Wednesday, June 20th, 2012.
I am lying awake in bed, trying to decide whether or not to have an abortion.
Of course, we don’t call it an abortion. We call it “a procedure” or a D&C. See, my potential abortion is one of the good abortions. I’m 31 years old. I’m married. These days, I’m pretty well off. I would very much like to stay pregnant right now. In fact, I have just spent the last year&following an earlier miscarriage&trying rather desperately to get pregnant.
Unfortunately, the doctors tell me that what I am now pregnant with is not going to survive. Last week, I had an ultrasound, I was almost 6 weeks along and looked okay. The only thing was that the heartbeat was slow. It wasn’t a huge deal. Heartbeats start slow, usually around the 6th week, and then they speed up. But my doctor asked me to come back in this week for a follow up, just to be sure. That was Tuesday, yesterday. Still my today. The heart hasn’t sped up. The fetus hasn’t grown. The egg yolk is now bigger than the fetus, which usually indicates a chromosomal abnormality. Basically, this fetus is going to die. I am going to have a miscarriage. It’s just a matter of when.
Because of these facts&all these facts&I get special privileges, compared to other women seeking abortion in the state of Minnesota.
Nobody has to tell my parents. I am not subject to a 24-hour waiting period. I do not have to sit passively while someone describes the gestational stage that my fetus is at, presents me with a laundry list of possible side-effects (some medically legit, some not), lectures me on all the other options that must have just slipped my mind, or forces me to look at enlarged, color photographs of healthy fetuses.
Because I have health insurance, I can afford a very nice OB/GYN whom I chose and who does not exercise her right to deny me this option. Thankfully, I don't live in a state where she can legally lie to me about the status of my fetus, to dissuade me from having an abortion.
Most importantly, from my perspective, I have the privilege of a private abortion in a nondescript medical office. I will not have to go to an abortion clinic. I will not have to walk by any protesters&not even Charlie, the one guy who is paid to protest every day outside Minneapolis’ abortion clinic, where I have volunteered as an escort in the past.
Most of these privileges boil down to the fact that, as far as my doctor and my medical billing are concerned, this is not an elective procedure.
But here’s the thing. It is elective.
I don’t have to do this. I am making a decision. Plain and simple. An incredibly awful, heart-wrenching decision with positives and negatives no matter which option I choose.
Having an abortion would get this miscarriage over with quickly. That’s important, as I’m leaving for a speaking engagement this weekend and am rather apprehensive about the risk of miscarrying, all by myself, in Aspen, Colorado, in an environment where I am supposed to be on professional behavior. (Uncontrollable sobbing doesn’t really fit with the image of competent journalist.) Most likely, there would be less pain and less bleeding. That’s also a big deal. My last miscarriage happened at 4 weeks along. I woke up in the middle of the night wanting to scream and almost vomiting from the pain. I bled for nearly two weeks after that. My guess is that these effects are not weaker for a 7-week miscarriage. Finally, even if I wait this out, there’s still a pretty decent chance that I end up having to get an abortion after all. It’s not uncommon for miscarriages like this to take too long to start, or not finish completely on their own. With just enough bad luck, I might get to experience both options.
On the other hand, I’m scared. This is surgery. Surgery is scary. There are small but very real-feeling risks involved: Reaction to anesthesia, infections, and in rare cases some women develop scar tissue in their uterus that can make it hard to get pregnant again. That might be the biggest fear for me, honestly. It took 5 months to get pregnant the first time. It was a year after that miscarriage before this pregnancy happened. I know that, for the most part, this is random chance. I have bad luck. But part of me is terrified of anything that might make this process harder than it already is. Also: Psychologically, I’m still clinging to this pregnancy. I want the doctors to be wrong. I want to have one of those miracles where everything turns out to be okay and I am relieved to find that I haven’t actually lost everything.
Right now, at 2:06 am, I’m leaning towards a compromise. I think I probably want the abortion. I don’t think I want to have to jump from thinking I had a viable pregnancy to having an abortion in a span of two days. My husband has offered to cancel his own business trip and come to Aspen with me. Maybe I’ll take him up on that, and wait until I get home on Monday to do a final ultrasound and get the abortion. I have a list of questions to ask my doctor in the morning. This decision is entirely dependent upon her answers, but I think it’s the right one for me.
That was a lot of TMI, I know. But I am telling you this to press a point.
I am making a decision.
The only thing that makes my abortion decision different from anyone else’s abortion decision is that some people who are against abortion will think that my abortion is acceptable.
Some. Not all. Maybe not even most. I honestly have no idea. My life is not in danger, after all. I have not been raped. I merely think that I might not want to sit around, feeling the symptoms of pregnancy, for god knows how long, until a heartbeat stops and the ripping pain kicks in and the blood starts flowing on its own.
Let me be clear. I have options. It’s just that they all suck. That’s kind of how bad news related to pregnancy works.
If you are pregnant, and do not want to be, all of your options suck.*
If you cannot seem to get pregnant, and want to be, all of your options suck.**
If you are pregnant, and won’t be soon, all of your options suck.
There is no universal good option. There is no universal bad option. But for each individual there is an option that is the least bad. Here is why I am pro-choice. If someone has to make a decision and the best they can hope for is the least-bad option, I don’t believe I have any business making that choice for them.
My abortion is not a good abortion. It's just an abortion. And there's no reason to treat the decision I have to make any differently than the decisions made by any other woman.
*I’ve known women who had abortions, women who gave a baby up for adoption, and women who raised an unintended baby on their own. None of those options are easy. None of those options are any less painful, traumatizing, or side-effect filled than any of the others. They only seem that way to people who haven’t experienced them.
**Whether you try low-level infertility treatments, IVF and donors, start looking for an adoption, or accept a life of unchosen childlessness, you are going to experience a lot of stress and you are going to have to give things up and grieve. You will probably need to chat with a therapist. None of these options is easier than the others. It just looks that way to people who haven’t experienced them.
& This post isn't really about miscarriage, specifically. But part of why I wrote it was to break some of the silence surrounding what I like to call The World's Shittiest Secret Society. As many as 50% of conceptions end in miscarriage. Most likely, that's not because of any outside forces. It's just because of the way nature works. If this has happened to you, you are not alone. If you have had a miscarriage, and are struggling with processing this thing, then I really think you should read Jon Cohen's . Cohen's wife had four miscarriages in a row before the birth of their second child. His book provides an evidence-based, sane-making perspective on what we do and don't know about miscarriage and it provides many, many reasons for hope. In particular, the fact that Cohen's wife's experience isn't extraordinary. Even if you have four miscarriages in a row, you've still got a greater than 70% chance of having a perfectly normal, healthy pregnancy the next time out. Miscarriage is weird, and it's horribly painful. If you're anything like me, learning as much as you can about it helps.
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Mur Lafferty is one of the worst-kept secrets in science fiction and fantasy publishing. “Secret” in that her fiction has not been widely published (until now). “Worst-kept” in that she has been such a force of nature — the podcaster’s podcaster, author of a huge corpus of excellent self-published work, and a skilled editor currently [&]
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科目:高中英语
来源:课堂三级讲练高中英语必修①
此题要求改正所给短文中的错误。对标有题号的每一行作出判断。如无错误,在该行右边横线上画一个勾(√);如有错误(每行只有一个错误),则按下列情况改正:
该行多一个词:把多余的词用斜线(\)划掉,在该行右边横线上写出该词,并也用斜线划掉。
该行缺一个词:在缺词处加一个漏字符号(∧),在该行右边横线上写出该加的词。
该行错一个词:在错的词下划一横线,在该行右边横线上写出改正后的词。
It was fine when I got up on last Sunday morning.
1.________
So I decided to go for a walk and took some photos in the
2.________
beautiful country. After breakfast, I carried my camera with
3.________
me and set off. Everything went smooth. I enjoyed my trip
4.________
so much that I didn't realize the weather had been turned
5.________
bad. I began to run and it was too late. I was caught
6.________
by the rain and was wet to the skin. I kept on running until
7.________
I get to a bus stop. I stood there waiting a long time for the bus,
8.________
shivering(发抖) in cold. Shortly after I got home, I had
9.________
high fever, which made me stay in bed for a whole week
10.________
科目:高中英语
来源:英语教研室
June 8th, 2004
  Tian'anmen. Square. Forbidden City. The Ming Tombs. Summer Palace. The Great Wall Peking Duck. Street of Bars.
  I feel like I've been run over by a tractor. Beijing has too much history. It's completely overpowering. I think my friend is just as blinded by the pure brightness of China's long past. Oh… the glory of ancient China still exists. I think out of all the places I visited, I like the Great Wall the best. We climbed, and climbed and climbed. Parts of it were basically straight up. We were out of breath all the way up. But it was all worth it. One sight of the length and lasting power of this monument of humankind blew the wind out of me. From our point of vision,
travels as far as the eye could see.
  On a totally unrelated topic, people here really like to use umbrellas and spit(not in that order). A great majority of the women here hold these little colored umbrellas--in fear of darkening the skin. I feel so out of place. I'm really brown. My mom calls me a black cat. One thing I can't get used to is people smoking in the restaurants and stores. Smoking is forbidden in most buildings in America unless there is a specified area . The food, however, is unbelievable. Salivating(流口水)became common.  I heard the National Entrance Exam ended today or yesterday. I'm still shocked at the idea of having so many exams crowded into two days. Thankfully, we didn't have to go through with it. Instead, we had to deal with the SATs. I had the chance to talk with a few students of my age. I really admire these students. They get the spirit of“patience and perseverance”.
(1) What reminded the author of his brown skin?
A.Umbrellas used on the Great Wall.
B.The women on the Great Wall.
C.The steep part of the Great Wall.
D.The author's mother.
(2) What puzzled the author most according to the passage?
A.The ancient Chinese buildings.
B.The Great Wall.
C.Chinese food.
D.The way the National Exam held in China.
(3) Which of the following is an unpleasant experience during the writer's visit in China?
A.Climbing the Great Wall.
B.Eating Chinese food.
C.Smoking is not forbidden in some public places.
D.So many students took part in the National Exam.
(4) What's the writer's attitude towards the Chinese students?
A.Sorry.B.Respectful
C.Pitiful.D.Strange.
科目:高中英语
June 8th, 2004
  Tian'anmen. Square. Forbidden City. The Ming Tombs. Summer Palace. The Great Wall Peking Duck. Street of Bars.
  I feel like I've been run over by a tractor. Beijing has too much history. It's completely overpowering. I think my friend is just as blinded by the pure brightness of China's long past. Oh… the glory of ancient China still exists. I think out of all the places I visited, I like the Great Wall the best. We climbed, and climbed and climbed. Parts of it were basically straight up. We were out of breath all the way up. But it was all worth it. One sight of the length and lasting power of this monument of humankind blew the wind out of me. From our point of vision,
travels as far as the eye could see.
  On a totally unrelated topic, people here really like to use umbrellas and spit(not in that order). A great majority of the women here hold these little colored umbrellas--in fear of darkening the skin. I feel so out of place. I'm really brown. My mom calls me a black cat. One thing I can't get used to is people smoking in the restaurants and stores. Smoking is forbidden in most buildings in America unless there is a specified area . The food, however, is unbelievable. Salivating(流口水)became common.  I heard the National Entrance Exam ended today or yesterday. I'm still shocked at the idea of having so many exams crowded into two days. Thankfully, we didn't have to go through with it. Instead, we had to deal with the SATs. I had the chance to talk with a few students of my age. I really admire these students. They get the spirit of“patience and perseverance”.
(1) What reminded the author of his brown skin?
A.Umbrellas used on the Great Wall.
B.The women on the Great Wall.
C.The steep part of the Great Wall.
D.The author's mother.
(2) What puzzled the author most according to the passage?
A.The ancient Chinese buildings.
B.The Great Wall.
C.Chinese food.
D.The way the National Exam held in China.
(3) Which of the following is an unpleasant experience during the writer's visit in China?
A.Climbing the Great Wall.
B.Eating Chinese food.
C.Smoking is not forbidden in some public places.
D.So many students took part in the National Exam.
(4) What's the writer's attitude towards the Chinese students?
A.Sorry.B.Respectful
C.Pitiful.D.Strange.
科目:高中英语
来源:学年福建省晋江市养正中学高二下学期第一次月考英语试卷(带解析)
题型:完型填空
It was only a few weeks after my surgery. I went to Dr. Belt’s office for a &&36&. It was just after my first chemotherapy treatment(化疗). My scar was still very tender.(疼痛的) &&37&. I was taken to an examination room to have my blood &&38&, again—a terrifying process for me, since I’m so frightened of &&39&.I lay down on the &&40&. Then Ramona entered the room. Her &&41&&smile was familiar, and &&42&&in contrast to my fears. I’d first seen her in the office a few weeks earlier. She wasn’t my &&43&&on that day, but I remember her because she was laughing. What could she &&44&&find to laugh about at a time like this? So I decided she wasn’t &&45&&enough about the whole thing.But this day was &&46&. Ramona had taken my blood before. She &&47&&my fear of needles, and she kindly &&48&&the medical equipment under a magazine. As we opened the layers of bandage, the &&49&&scar on my chest could be seen.She gently &&50&&over and ran her hand across the scar, &&51&&the smoothness of the healing skin. I began to cry gently and quietly. She brought her warm eyes to mine and said, “You haven’t &&52&&it yet, have you?” And I said, “No.”I continued to cry gently. In &&53&&tones she said. “This is part of your body. This is you. It’s okay to touch it.” But I couldn’t. So she touched it for me. The &&54&. The healing wound. And beneath it, she touched my heart.That night as I lay down, I gently placed my hand on my chest and I left it there &&55&&I fell asleep. I knew I wasn’t alone.【小题1】A.prescriptionB.checkupC.conversationD.discussion【小题2】A.At onceB.As usualC.In factD.In addition【小题3】A.correctedB.mixedC.drawnD.cleaned【小题4】A.doctorsB.nursesC.bloodD.needles【小题5】A.operation tableB.office floorC.examining bedD.test bed【小题6】A.weakB.bitterC.shyD.warm【小题7】A.worked outB.stood outC.found outD.gave out【小题8】A.girlB.partnerC.companionD.nurse【小题9】A.accidentallyB.particularlyC.possiblyD.actually【小题10】A.seriousB.curiousC.worriedD.nervous【小题11】A.differentB.difficultC.pleasantD.common【小题12】A.talked aboutB.got aroundC.knew aboutD.put away【小题13】A.foundB.replaced C.showedD.hid【小题14】A.oldB.wornC.freshD.fine【小题15】A.cameB.wentC.searchedD.reached【小题16】A.examiningB.coveringC.pressingD.removing【小题17】A.watchedB.discoveredC.touchedD.unfolded【小题18】A.toughB.softC.coldD.strict【小题19】A.bandageB.soulC.painD.scar【小题20】A.afterB.untilC.sinceD.when
科目:高中英语
来源:云南省2010届高三下学期第一次统一检测
题型:阅读理解
第三部分:阅读理解(共20小题;每小题2分;满分40分)阅读下列短文,从每题所给的四个选项(A、B、C、D)中选出最佳选项。A The first time I saw Carlos, I had my arms full of books and I was tearing into the classroom when I ran into something solid.It was Carlos. "My, you're tall," he exclaimed. Of course, the class began to laugh.Annoyed, I walked to my seat without a word. I glanced back to see if Reed Harrington was laughing with the rest.That would be the last straw.To my relief.Reed was studying and did not seem to be aware of it.I didn't know why I considered Reed my friend.Maybe just because he was a good two inches taller than I. "Take that seat," Mr.McCarthy told the newcomer, pointing to the only empty one, in the back of the room. Carlos smiled broadly."But I need a couple of dictionaries." Again the class laughed, but now they were laughing with Carlos, not at him.He had been here only 10 minutes and already he had them on his side. It was the school election that made me think of Carlos again.Reed Harrington was voted president and Carlos vice-president."How come?" I kept asking myself."How come this shrimp (虾) who's only been in town for a little over a month gets to be so popular?" So when I met Carlos this morning, I said to him, "It doesn't seem to bother you — being short, I mean." He looked up at me."Of course I mind being short.But there isn't anything I can do about it.When I realized I was going to have to spend my life in this undersized skin, I decided to make the best of it.My motto is — don't be afraid to be yourself."56.This passage is mainly about a short boy who ____________. A.won the school election&&&&&& B.is ashamed of his height C.has learned to accept his size&&
D.is embarrassed by the class57.From the story, we can see that Carlos is ________. A.shy but diligent&&& B.humorous and confident&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& C.proud and popular&&&&&&& D.honest but sensitive58.Paragraph 4 suggests that the author ______. A.cared much about Reed's attitude B.thought Reed was the same as the others
C.couldn't stand Carlos playing tricks on her& D.hoped Reed was laughing with the others59.According to the passage, what happened after the election? A.Carlos and the author argued with each other.&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& B.Carlos and Reed became very good friends.&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& C.The author changed her attitude toward Carlos.&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& D.Carlos was elected president of the student committee.

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